In his letter to the Romans, St. Paul said, ‘For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor rulers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.’ (Romans 8:38-39)
God’s love is always with us, but it is up to us to receive that love. He is always knocking at the door to our hearts, but it is up to us to open that door and let Him in. And while it is the only thing that will lead us to true happiness, it is not always an easy thing to do.
Recently, a listener named Krista called in to The Joe Sikorra Show and shared that after 16 years of living as an agnostic, she is being called back to the Christian faith of her childhood, but she is struggling with how to answer that call. Krista said:
I was born and raised in a Christian household, and went to church until I was 14. When I was 14 I decided I was old enough to make up my own mind and decide what I wanted to believe – and I left the church.
I developed an agnostic point of view and at 17 met my now-husband. We’ve been together for 13 years, and we were both agnostic when we met. I haven’t been back to church, but I’ve been listening to your show on my drive home from work for the past year or so, and kind of getting back into it.
Recently I asked my husband, ‘What do you think, would you go back to church?’ and he said I could do whatever I want, but he’s not going to step foot in a church. So now I’m in this position in my marriage where I want to return to my religion and he doesn’t. So I’m not sure where to go with it.
… I want the community and I want to find that faith again. And I’m having difficulty, since I’ve been agnostic from 14, of trying to figure out how to believe in God and navigate through these emotions.
“The greatest of apostles came from a place of profound trust or disbelief. Paul persecuted the Christians, Peter denied Jesus. In that sense, you’re not separate at all from those who are really the pillars of the Church.
We’re always given a choice, and God is giving you a choice. He’s saying, ‘You can follow Me, or you can follow whatever it is you think is right.’ And that’s how much He loves you and loves your husband. Don’t think that because you’re away from the Church that God’s love is distant from you.
I believe that you called in for a reason, because I think you’re looking at maybe the biggest decision you could make – one that’s going to shape eternity.
I don’t really know your life, but I know it’s probably been a mixed bag, like mine. And when I’ve really hit the wall, there was nothing I was more grateful for than my own faith. I can’t even describe it, that experience where God just enters in and moves through you, and the Holy Spirit just lives in you – guiding you, shaping you, and you experience that love. I would die, literally, before I would give that up.
Krista, He died so that you can live. I want you to know that you’ve got a brother here, your brother Joe, to welcome you into the faith community whenever it is you feel called. And I’m thinking it’s soon, if not right now. God will reveal Himself to you. I think He is right now, and I think that knock is going to get louder and louder at the door, until you say, ‘OK, come on in.'”
Listen to the full conversation below:
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